I am getting better but i am still not okay

okay from my last story my life is so crappy, I am still crappy but I am gradually trying to get better it hurts. I am depressed again because I have depression and when I am depressed I don't to do normal life things like if my parents asking me to do stuff or just when I am bored its like I don't how to function anymore it hurt too much . I mean I lost a friend I know she was bad but it hurts.

my life is a disaster

Last night or tonight on New years eve or day, my dad ruined the rest of the night because he got drunk. My Dad scared the mice out of me ,I would use a bad word but I don't think it would be appropriate. My dad practically abused my mom with words and physically like sat on her. My Dad does this every New years, I can't take it. He scared my older sister. He kept saying to me and forced me like dragged me to get to bed but I couldn't because for a while now I have been having seizures and depression, it is to much to handle as it is, and for my dad to be drunk and when obviously I was  sad. My sister had to call the police on him it was so bad. I wish I can trust him again but I can't. It was just too much and too much going on I wanted it too stop.