I am getting better but i am still not okay

okay from my last story my life is so crappy, I am still crappy but I am gradually trying to get better it hurts. I am depressed again because I have depression and when I am depressed I don't to do normal life things like if my parents asking me to do stuff or just when I am bored its like I don't how to function anymore it hurt too much . I mean I lost a friend I know she was bad but it hurts.